About Me
Heey, I'm Vanessa, and I'm not even scared anymore. I'm tired of not being about to express myself and state my opinion. For now on I'm ready to say what I want to say and tell anyone what they should hear. People shouldn't hear anymore lies, I'm tired of lies, we need alittle bit of honesty in the world and I'm ready to speak it.
I'm A sixteen year old girl, looking for a way to live her life in a manner that is fun and sucessful. I'm in love with green. There is so many things I absolutely love in life. I really love animals, lyke if i could be a veternarian i would be, but there's one down fall to that is I wouldn't be able to put animals down. My favourite animals would have to be horses, dogs, kittens, turtles ! , zebras, bunnies and koalas.
Omgosh and don't even get me started on boys. I honestly love boys, lyke they are so cute and hilarious, they make the bestest friends ♥. Don't you just love it when a boy notices you are cold and gives you their sweater to keep? I LOVE THAT! Their sweaters are always sososo warm byyyyy FAR.
Music is personally my life, I don't know what I'll ever do without it. It literally expressing exactly what I'm feeling in a sweet melody. Some bands that i find am-a-zinnnng are City and Colour, Marianas trench, A Rocket to the moon, Led Zepplin, The Beatles, The eagles, etc. I'm actually into variety of genres of music, rap, pop, country, house music, dubstep, rock, classic rock, and way more. Honestly if you look at my ipod its filled with random music from top to bottom. Music just speaks to me, its always been there for me. When I listen to a song I don't just listen I feel it.
I have this friend, her name is Danielle. Now she has been in my life for 9 years now. We've been best friends for 6 years now. She is honestly the best thing that's ever happened to me. I don't know what I'd ever do without her, she is the definition of a TRUE FRIEND. She's always been there for me, through the good and bad no matter what. Yes, we have our silly fights, but we ALWAYS make up. I'll always be here for this girl. She is my first priority to make happy. We are literally inseparable.
My favourite things in life, are the tinyest ones. I love hugs, forehead kisses, the smell of burning wood, holding hands, sunset walks, star gazing, reading, laughing, smiling, crying, moon, sun, space, cookies, popcorn smell, cinnamon, daddy hugs, heart-to-hearts, love, cuddling, teddies, little shoes, a baby's laugh, smell of autumn, winter and summer, tree leaves, being walked to my bus, having someone there for you, trees, disney movies, hot chocolate, tea, arizona, I love you texts, comfy beds, fireplaces, sleeping, bonfires.
I can honestly say I have no idea where life is taking me, I'm trying my best to make the correct decisions inorder to go in the right direction for me and to make ME happy. I decided awhile ago I should start making myself happy first before I make other happy, because before that's all I did, and clearly I was not happy at all, considering I was constantly complaing about what was going on in my life. Now, I'm just trying to enjoy everything. You truly only live once, so why not make it the best life, and fuck all the haters who tell you otherwise. Who are they to judge you for your mistakes, they don't know you, they don't know what you have been through, its YOUR life so do what you want. Regret, forgive, forget, love, fall out of love, remember, make memories, hold on, be confident and most of all smile.
What to know something that is extremely precious to me? Having someone trust me with something. I lost someone's complete trust.. and that's something I can never get back. No matter what happens people still continously don't have it in them to trust me and honestly who can blame them? What have I done to ever earn their trust? I mean i fucked someone over before and I actually loved that person.. so why should I be trusted?
That's what I need.. is relief, I need someone out there anyone, to just trust me.
-forgiveness
- trust
-respect
Three things I seem to lack.
I will never recieve forgiveness for what has happened throughout my life, i can never gain the trust of the same people again, and the respect people have lost for me and I've lost for others.
I just need to find a peace of mind.
I constantly overthink of whats to come and where I have been and all it dos is make everything linger in the present allowing the brain to stimuntatously think negative thoughts producing an unhappy environment for myself.
